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"It's one thing to say you're gonna let go, it's another to actually do it...to loosen your grip and let yourself fall..."

If you know me at all, the quote stated above should ring a bell, maybe not a huge bell but at least a tiny little bell.  It's been my quote, yes MY, since 1999 and will continue to be until I find another that matches its simple truth. 

I use to be a dedicated Felicity fan and I say "use to" loosely only because the show no longer airs on syndicated television.  And, because I am too cheap to buy the 4 season collection my only resort now has become youtube.  Actually I'd be lying if I said i didn't own any season...I do own the second, which is in fact my favorite season, but I can't thank myself for that purchase only because, well simply put...i didn't...but I can say that it was one of the best parting gifts that I have ever received. 

My Felicity obsession began when I made the transition from being that lonely awkward pre-teen into that lonely awkward teen, I give Felicity credit for sparking change in me.  Throughout my experience with Felicity fans I've noticed that they can be categorized into two sections 1) those who watched the show, liked it and since then have been able to move on, reminiscing occasionally when a memory is sparked and 2) those who still somehow manage to live vicariously through the show even though it was just a show and still even though it is now more than 6 years old somehow manage to revert back to it every time their life takes a twist.  If you haven't put two and two together, I fit into the latter. 

I recently started watching those Felicity youtube videos and although they bring up memories and feelings they still continue to be my comfort; the place where I can finally be alone and lose myself in this world, if even for just those few minutes...suddenly Felicity's world somehow becomes far more real than mine.   I've been told by a good friend that I like to  glamorize life and that my interpretations of living are sometimes unrealistic and that I should stop trying to make my life and the lives of others around me a TV show...she's partially right, I'm not living a show but I certainly don't see the harm in wanting to have that happy ending.

But back to my quote.  I love this quote and in fact I cherish it, for all the help it has given me and for the strength it reminds me I should have.  It is hard to move on in life and it is one things to say you're going to do it, but the real challenge is in actually letting go...whether I am good at doing so isn't so much the case but the fact that I have tried and will continue to do so is what separates me from a tv drama and makes me the more human.  Sometimes things happen to us and the only things left to do...is watch youtube videos...