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KittehLove

Valentines Day...we know the deal, it comes once a year and with it it brings reds and pinks and hearts and stuffed bears and food and flowers and...the list is endless.  It's true, I wasn't going to blog about it since I thought it safe to assume that the millions and billions of people around the globe would naturally take it upon themselves to either love about, photograph about or not uncommonly, hate about this very heart filled day.  None the less I decided to dive into this without bias because I know, that deep down, I wouldn't mind sharing this special day with a significant other but, I also know that deep down there is a part of me that kinda wishes this day wasn't such a big deal.

There was a time, many many many years ago when I use to get excited about Valentines Day.  I would grab my mami and say "Vamos a la tienda pleaaaseeeeeee!"  I'd drag her to the nearest pharmacy store or Target and I would peruse the various cartoon themed valentine cards (of course back then the cards where a lot cooler because there were characters such as the Ninja Turtles and Duck tales).  I would make my selections very meticulously, considering all of my classmates and contemplating which card was right for each individual one of them.  After making my selection I would pull out a list that contained all of my classmates names, that our teachers would very kindly print out for us and I would then begin my quest; to write each of them a personal message.  Whether it was "hi happy valentines day hope you have a good one, love ariana" or "happy Day!  Lets play kick ball more often, ariana" I felt that a personalized message always meant just a little more and in the process I had loads of fun. 

Later in life I realized that this made up day of love was not meant for giving out silly cartoon cards.  As Junior High and High School came around I realized that this day was about receiving gifts, often times from secret admirers....although I can't say I've ever known and will ever know what that feels like I was merely an observer.  This isn't me crying out to all those internet stalkers or even a plea to those few who I happen to know, this is simply an acknowledgment as to what Valentines Day became after my innocent youth.  I was confused, I didn't understand why this day suddenly had become a day of sadness when just a few years ago it was about candy and brown sandwich bags overflowing with cards from all of my classmates.   As the years progressed I recessed and some how this day of fun celebration turned into a mopey day in, with maybe a friend or two, as we ate and watched sappy flicks that just so happened to be airing that day.  Years fly by and in those times we tend to not notice the obvious.  Valentines Day was becoming a reminder that not everyone would be adored and adorned with Love.

If I have given off the impression that I hate or have hated this day, my apologies I really don't.  In fact I would be more inclined to say that I am indifferent.  I no longer care whether I am alone or whether I am not but I would be lying if I chose to say that I don't get all mushy about certain aspects, ie cookie shaped hearts, cards in reds and pink hues, photos of cute animals hugging or even heart themed baking dishes...but then again I love that stuff all year round.

This Valentines Day instead of being for it or against it, as I have chosen to be the previous two years, I've decided that I will be unbiased and allow myself to enjoy the love birds on the streets of Manhattan celebrating their drunk love...because sometimes I guess it is kind of nice to see people actually enjoying themselves rather then screaming at each other, even if it is just on this day.

"Happy Valentines Day!  It was great playing cartoon tag last week =).  love, ariana"